Seeking His Love

Falling madly truly and crazy in love with Jesus Christ my Savior :)

February 5, 2012 5:51 pm


Luke 23:33-34 NIV

When they came to a place called the Skull, there they crucified him, along with the criminals – one on his right, the other on his left, Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”

Forgiving to be set free…it may sound easier than it really is but its something my mom has taught me to do mainly through her actions since I was little. I was talking to one of my girlfriends today and she said she forgives but wont forget and that was something I use to live by as well but where is the freedom in that? And do you think Christ forgives us but then says He will keep record of all the times we hurt him? The answer is no :) THANK GOODNESS It talks about true love in 1 Corinthians 13 with true love you will be able to forgive!! I believe in you…thats why I created this blog because if I can do it so can you! So lets begin :) :) 

The first time I had to forgive…(Dad) 

This took YEARS, a year of me being mad just out of spite, a couple years of hurt and couple months of testing out to see if I could be okay with him and then going right back to not talking to him every time he messed up….(and messed up according to me and my standards) I had very high standards for what I thought a father should be and mainly I would set these standards based off of the girlfriends I had around me and how there fathers were…and I was also very into buying my love especially when I knew my dad would mess up I wanted him to buy me things to get on my good side again. This went on for so many years from around 6th grade until senior year in high school…I had so much anger inside of me I had no grace towards him and the fact that he is human and makes mistakes but was trying the best he could and he did always provide but I was also letting so many people feed my mind that he wasn’t doing his part (even people in the church) and that’s what made me so hurt…even people in the church were judging him…weren’t they suppose to be the ones loving him BC Christ loves the broken and our family was just that. It wasn’t until one of my mentors told me she really thought I needed to forgive my dad and I was so mad she said that but she said just pray and ask the Lord if you should forgive him and ask him for the steps to take so I did  and that’s when the healing began. It took a year of writing him letters and telling him how I felt and trust me they weren’t very nice I wanted to pay for what he did to me so my thoughts and my motives were not pure but that was okay the Lord was going to stay right next to me and help me. And He did, I forgave my dad for everything and everything was wiped away after time, he became a new person and I viewed him as Christ viewed him with an overpowering love and grace! I saw him as human and knew the only perfect father I will ever have is Christ! 

People just don’t realize how much hurt you hold in when your not wanting to forgive…you can sit and explain a million reasons why this person has hurt you but what your not seeing is the Lord calls us to LOVE and loving is not holding on to a list of things people have done to you….you may be damaged but the Lord can restore your heart! Each time someone hurts you they hurt the Lord as well so your not in this alone! As you get older you don’t need to bring past hurts into relationships and families joy will come when you forgive and focus your eyes on Christ who will not hurt you! I hope this blesses someone today! Love you all!! 



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